I’m signing off for the rest of the year to enjoy Christmas and flee to the beautiful, cell-service free land of the Catskills. Happy holidays everyone! And hooray for this year mercifully being over!
It’s been…a year. Even aside from the cloud of darkness the election caused and the constant onslaught of depressing news, 2016 was not my favorite year. Work sucked, my dog passed away, my friends moved away, and I was once again left with my face pointed to the heavens, wondering when things were going to magically align and become easy. You’d think by now I would know that A.) that’s not how the heavens work B.) you should wear sunscreen when staring directly at the heavens C.) things don’t work on the timeline that I decide will work for me.
As I have displayed and written about countless times, patience is not my thing. And 2016 demanded a lot of patience on many different levels that I just don’t possess! I was supposed to be patient with my career and the endless waiting that it would finally become something I’d actually enjoy; I was supposed to patiently slog through the wasteland of jerks who dumped me and treated me like crap on the off chance one of them would be nice enough to date for longer than a month; I’m supposed to wait patiently for the day/minute/second where I actually feel like I know WHAT I AM DOING AT ALL; and I’m supposed to funnel all of this patience so I don’t look back and say, “Oh, silly Alyssa. See all that time you spent being impatient for things that have eventually worked out?” That is a TALL ORDER!
….So the goal for 2017 is to have (a tad bit) more patience. Or at least to not let all of my impatience snowball into a giant clump of FEELINGS AND EMOTIONS AND ANGST all the time. But mixed in with all of that are some good things too. I made a lot of positive changes to my work situation (teaser – will be discussed in the new year….); I traveled, I made new friends, I did fun things, I took risks, I lunged out of my comfort zone, I flung myself out of situations where I was unhappy and made changes. So here’s to appreciating that! Personal growth! Maybe 2016 wasn’t a wash after all. (Though a better dating life wouldn’t have hurt….) At least I had a haircut I finally liked!