Now that I’m off the market, the amount of time I spend thinking about what it was like when I was dating is basically… zero minutes. This is actually pretty surprising to me. Considering dating took up SO MUCH OF MY BRAIN SPACE, I thought in the aftermath, I’d experience dating PTSD. I assumed neighborhoods and songs and just like, coffee in general, would remind me of dates I’d gone on, but in reality, my brain has been pleasantly wiped! I honestly cannot even remember the names of people I dated if I try to think of them now, and that is some SWEET RELIEF since it used to seem like I WOULD NEVER FORGET ANYTHING GOOD GOD.
There are so many things I don’t miss about dating anymore. Not dating, irregardless of the fact that I’m in an awesome relationship, has really improved my quality of life! Try it if you can! I wish I was exaggerating, but I am not. I wish I found dating enjoyable, but I did not. I wish I could say I was a wild and free 20-something in the big city, but I was not.
Dating was really difficult, really unpleasant, and really frustrating. I couldn’t figure out how to get someone to know and appreciate me, and felt like I was constantly walking on eggshells, waiting for the shoe to drop (which it always did). Maybe if I had relaxed or not taken myself so seriously, it would have been different, but then I probably wouldn’t have met NF! So who know why life happens the way it does. Maybe I would have liked to have gotten to this point a little faster, but when I did meet NF, I felt like I had finally decided that being myself was the way to go, take it or leave it. Fortunately he took it, and I got to leave dating in the past!